Im not sure that i commit to sect behind a certian deity but if there is an omnipitant being, an alpha and omaga, he scares the hell out of me
constantly i find myself argueing my life decicions, scolding myself for my secular practices all in the hopes to balance out some sort of karma,
this is a terrifieing prosses, because if a deity is lingering then its standards surpass anything i hope to achieve. The mere thought of critisism and cruelty that can be deliviered by one person to another may only be the glimps
of the refinity some alpha and omega can exspect.
The only thing to put me to rest is the idea that i dont understand the direction of perfection. perhaps a godthing has the capability to ignore faults that linger in my own mind.
perhaps even if im not relegious, the idea of one good being with a reasonable succission into afterlife is something best left wondered about, instead of proven or dissproven
oh well, take nothing seriously. my words are not to be noticed in such a mannor